To kirvy

"I still have my feelings for you. It bothers me to the point that it physically hurts when I've learned that you have your someone new na. I know I have no right to even write this message since I am the one who decided to end things between us. Sorry, because I UNCONSCIOUSLY hoping na pala for us. I've realized that lang nung nalaman ko ngang you're talking to someone na, akala ko kasi nakamove on na ako. I thought I'm fine na since I don't reach out na unlike dati. Pero deep in my mind ik that your existence still lingers on my everyday life, I tend to remember our memories kasi in unexpected moments. The bonds that we had that I ALREADY FORGOT suddenly bring up themselves when I got to see the places we made those in. The used to be normal places became the places that I intentionally divert my attention to something when the jeepney is about to pass onto, just so I wouldn't remember our memories— YOU in general. I don't care if this would feed your ego or whatever but you're actually hard to forget—maybe because of the moments we spent together. But through these all, I really really hope that this time, you'll get the right treatment and label that you deserve without you asking for them. Sorry that I couldn't give you my whole, I couldn't commit with you. And we've talked about it naman na, nagkaintindihan naman na. I just wrote this message because even after I told my friend my thoughts and feelings, It didn't change a thing, it still pain me to the core. And in this way, it somehow eases me because I wrote this under your name, kirvy. And if at some point that this message stumble upon your path, I don't need you to do anything, just read then do your thing like nothing happened. I wish you everything good in this universe, Mr. Pilot! —byebeyebeyebeyebey"