To I miss you cleah...

"Hi Cleah... I know maybe this message won’t change how you feel right now, but I still want to say it I’m really sorry. For everything. For hurting you, for not being the person you needed me to be, for all the pain I caused, even without meaning to. I’ve been thinking about everything that happened between us, and I realize now how much I messed up… and how much I’ve hurt the one person I love the most. I swear to you, from the bottom of my heart I never lied to you. Everything I told you, all the times I said I loved you, I meant all of it. Even now, those feelings haven’t changed. I didn’t play with your heart. I wasn’t pretending. And it hurts me knowing that I gave you reasons to doubt me. I’m not perfect, and I made a lot of wrong decisions, but that doesn’t mean I ever stopped loving you. You’re still the one I think about every single day. And I know you said to stop waiting for you… but honestly, how can I stop waiting for the person who gave my life so much meaning? And if one day if you decided to come back, just message me, i will reply in a second with the same energy. I know that i ruined our beautiful relationship. i regret everything i did because i hurt you and i hurt us. i understand you no longer have trust in me and it's my fault. hopefully one day i can help you gain that trust back that you once had for me. i'd do anything to show you how i've changed and grown since you left. you brought out the best side of me even when other influences brought out the worst. you brought my smile back. you taught me what love really is. you made this relationship what it was. i can't imagine myself with anyone else and you are so perfect in my eyes. even your flaws. nobody is perfect but we were perfect together. i'll always be waiting for you no matter how long it takes. i'll never stop loving you. let's fall in love all over again. I’m not here to force you, I just want to be real with you. If there's even a small space in your heart, I’m asking for a second chance. Just one more chance to prove that I can do better, love better, and be the man you can trust again. I know it won’t be easy to gain your trust back but I’m willing to wait, to earn it, slowly, patiently, one step at a time. I want to sincerely apologize for my actions that may have caused you hurt. I deeply regret my words and behavior and, I take full responsibility for the pain I have caused. Please know that it was never my intention to hurt you and I am truly sorry for any distress | have caused. I value our relationship and your feelings, and I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I will strive to do better and learn from this mistake. I am truly sorry. No matter what happens, I’ll be here. I’ll wait for you, even if it takes time. Even if you’re distant now, I’ll still hope that one day… you’ll come back. That one day, you’ll see how serious I am about you. Because I still believe in us. And no matter what, I love you so much, Cleah. Even if you don’t believe me right now… even if your heart is closed for now… I’ll still stay. Because my heart never stopped choosing you. And I’m really hoping… maybe one day, you’ll choose me again too."